On own behalf

It’s been quiet here lately. Very quiet. This has certainly been unpleasant in two ways. On the one hand for you, who have been used to regularly reading new posts from me about life with a PEG tube. But also for the algorithms and ultimately for myself. Because if the algorithms don’t like you, then nobody will find you in the infinite vastness of the internet. Nevertheless, I have accepted this silence, this time out. Today I will tell you why and what the background was.

Accesses reduced more and more

I’ve actually been able to see how the number of visits on my site has decreased more and more since new posts stopped appearing here regularly. Interesting on the one hand, but also quite sad on the other. Because many people now organize their lives according to these algorithms. As content creators report time and again, they sometimes experience massive stress. I can certainly understand that. I was also a little stressed about it. However, I soon reached a point where I didn’t care. I had completely different things to do.

What had happened?

But what had happened? Some of you may know that I worked in Mallorca last year. Something that all people who are EU nationals are allowed to do. However, this EU law was of little interest to the authority responsible for my assistance. I don’t want to go into any more detail at this point. There will be a different context for that. Suffice it to say here and now that I had to return to Germany and was put under massive pressure to do so. So much so that my self-determined life was threatened. That really took its toll on me mentally. 
As you know from the article on the spoon theory, at some point I was at the end of my tether. I then did something that I had never done in my entire professional life: I went to my doctor and actually went on sick leave. Because I was simply no longer fit for work. There were some very dark demons in my life. Dealing with them and freeing myself from them took a lot of energy and time. A lot of time. More than I ever thought it would. It was also a new experience for me that it could throw me off course like that. I had always considered myself to be a pretty resilient person.

Everything that comes

Sometimes it takes time, peace and quiet and a great environment to recharge your batteries. Fortunately, I have now reached this point again. I’ve learned a lot over the past few months. I will certainly pass on some of it and process it elsewhere. There will be regular posts about life with PEG here in the future. So stay tuned! If you don’t want to miss any of these posts, be sure to subscribe to my newsletter. You will then receive all new posts in your e-mail inbox. There’s also a preview of the topics for the coming weeks as well as other exclusive content.
I’m really looking forward to everything that’s coming! All the best to you and see you soon.